Hi there! My name is Emilie F. Yaakaar. I’m the owner and sole creator behind this site, Finding Myself Inside Me. A mid-late 90s baby who was born and raised in the Basque Country, I have been living in England since 2012. I’m a daughter and granddaughter of migrants from different places, hence I have a very multi ethnic and multi cultural background (mainly West African, Central African, Hispanic and Latin-Caribbean). Raised as a Catholic, I’m not a staunch follower of any faith, though I still consider myself religious to some extent. Thanks to my transnational identity, I can speak fluent English and Spanish, with Basque being my official third language. Meanwhile, I’m currently working on becoming fluent in French, Portuguese, Arabic and Wolof: I have from elementary to limited proficiency in those four languages.
Personally, I would define myself as an ordinary girl, who is occasionally weird. And somewhat moody. And socially awkward. Above all, I’m a certified bookworm and music lover. Books and comics shaped my childhood, music defined my teenage years. Some of my favourite fiction writers include Elisabetta Gnome, the Bronte Sisters and Jane Austen (I’m on a mission to diversify my bookshelves so this will change!), while I’m a big enthusiast of singers/bands like Beyoncé, Alicia Keys, Avril Lavigne, Miley Cyrus, Paramore, Imagine Dragons, Niall Horan, Lana del Rey, Angel Haze, and P!nk. Although less frequently, I also love watching TV-series such as Bones, How I Met Your Mother, Sense8, Shadowhunters and The Office. I adore superhero movies (#TeamMarvel!) and inspirational/relatable films (The Pursuit of Happyness & The Perks of Being a Wallflower changed my life). And apart from visual, musical and literary arts, I enjoy cooking and playing basketball.
At present, I’m a full-time undergraduate student pursuing a degree in International Development, a social sciences and global studies subject with which I have a love-hate relationship. Once I finish, I would like to top the course with a specialised master and a PhD in order to become a researcher (fingers crossed!). I’m from a very disadvantaged background and I would like to improve my situation, and the situation of people with similar or worse backgrounds, through my studies and professional career. I often get involved in social action and community work, normally through volunteering regularly, At the same, I have a couple of jobs to save money for the future and for experiences such as internships and cultural exchanges abroad.
Above all, writing has been my passion since primary school, something between a hobby and a career for me: I don’t want to dedicate my whole life to it, but I would like to publish my works and see them succeed. In primary school, I started writing by creating poems, short stories and novellas. Now, I also write songs, scripts/plays, novels and essays (my poems, song lyrics and essays are featured in this site!). Writing has always been a self-care and reflective practice for me, not so much to escape from my life, but to make sense of it and my feelings. Furthermore, due to a speech disorder and occasional anxiety, I’m not a good speaker. Thus, when you are reading my blog or/and my original works, keep in mind you are really learning about who I am and how I think, probably much more than when I speak. By the way, fear not if you don’t like reading: I have increasingly developed an interest in photography and film-making, hence I will be sharing more visual and audiovisual artistic work.
So, I don’t have much more to say… This is me! A development undergraduate, literary artist, blogger, songwriter and essayist, who is also a bookworm and music lover. Just an ordinary girl working hard to be a self-published creative and researcher.