Hi there! My name is Emilie F. Yaakaar. I’m the owner and sole creator behind this site, Finding Myself Inside Me.
Personally, I would define myself as an ordinary person, who is occasionally weird. And somewhat moody. And socially awkward. Above all, I’m a certified bookworm and music lover. Books and comics shaped my childhood, music defined my teenage years. Some of my favourite fiction writers include Elisabetta Gnome, the Bronte Sisters and Jane Austen (I’m on a mission to diversify my bookshelves so this will change!), while I’m a big enthusiast of singers/bands like Alicia Keys, Avril Lavigne, Miley Cyrus, Paramore, Sky Ferreira, Imagine Dragons, Niall Horan, Lana del Rey, Angel Haze, Missy Elliot, Queen Latifah and P!nk. Although less frequently, I also love watching TV/webseries such as Bones, How I Met Your Mother, Sense8, Shadowhunters, Stranger Things, Daredevil, Jessica Jones, The Punisher, Castle and The Office (US). I adore superhero movies (#TeamMarvel! Winter Soldier is my favourite superheroe film. Still love DC though) and inspirational/relatable films (The Pursuit of Happyness, Lady Bird, The Secret Life of the Bees & The Perks of Being a Wallflower changed my life). And apart from visual, musical and literary arts, I enjoy cooking and playing basketball.
At present, I’m a full-time undergraduate student pursuing a degree in International Development, an interdisciplinary social sciences and global studies subject with which I have a love-hate relationship. While I study different topics, from economics and history to geography and anthropology, the environment and social justice are my main interests. When I finish, I would like to top the course with a specialised master and a PhD in order to become a researcher (fingers crossed!). I’m from a very disadvantaged background and I would like to improve my situation, and the situation of people with similar or worse backgrounds, through my studies and professional career. I often get involved in social action and community work, normally through volunteering. At the same, I have a couple of jobs to save money for the future and for experiences such as internships and cultural exchanges abroad.
Above all, writing has been my passion since primary school, something between a hobby and a career for me: I don’t want to dedicate my whole life to it, but I would like to publish my works and see them succeed. In primary school, I started writing by creating poems, short stories and novellas. Now, I also write songs, scripts/plays, novels and essays (my poems, song lyrics and essays are featured in this site!). Writing has always been a self-care and reflective practice for me, not so much to escape from my life, but to make sense of it and my feelings. Furthermore, due to a speech disorder and occasional anxiety, I’m not a good speaker. Thus, when you are reading my blog or/and my original works, keep in mind you are really learning about who I am and how I think, probably much more than when I speak. By the way, fear not if you don’t like reading: I have increasingly developed an interest in photography and film-making, hence I will be sharing more visual and audiovisual artistic work.
So, I don’t have much more to say… This is me! A development undergraduate, literary artist, blogger, songwriter and essayist, who is also a bookworm and music lover. Just an ordinary girl working hard to be a self-published creative and researcher.