Hi there! My name is Emilie F. Yaakaar. I’m the owner and sole creator behind this site, Finding Myself Inside Me. A ’96 baby who was born and raised in the Basque Country, I have been living in England since 2012. As a result, I can speak fluent English and Spanish, with Basque theoretically being my third language, followed by French, Arabic and Wolof, languages which I’m currently learning. My parents, and their respective parents, are all from different places, hence I have a multicultural and multi-ethnic background, mainly from Senegal, Equatorial Guinea, DR Congo, Guinea-Bissau, Angola and Cuba. Raised as a Catholic, I’m not a staunch follower of any faith, though I’m still religious to some extent. Also, I consider myself as part of the LGBT+ community, identifying as queer.
Personally, I would define my persona as an ordinary girl who is occasionally weird. And somewhat moody. And socially awkward. Above all, I’m a certified bookworm and music lover. Books and comics shaped my childhood, music defined my teenage years. Some of my favourite fiction writers include Elisabetta Gnome, the Bronte Sisters and Jane Austen (I’m on a mission to diversify my bookshelves so this will change!), while I’m a big enthusiast of singers/bands like Alicia Keys, Avril Lavigne, Miley Cyrus, Paramore, Angel Haze, and P!nk.
Although less frequently, I also love watching TV/webseries such as Bones, How I Met Your Mother, Sense8, Shadowhunters, Daredevil, Jessica Jones, Castle, Agents of Shield, and The Office (U.S.). I adore superhero movies (#TeamMarvel! Winter Soldier is my favourite superheroe film. Still love DC though!) and inspirational/relatable films (The Pursuit of Happyness, Lady Bird, The Secret Life of the Bees & The Perks of Being a Wallflower changed my life). And apart from visual, musical and literary arts, I enjoy cooking and playing basketball.
At present, I’m a full-time undergraduate student pursuing a degree in International Development, an interdisciplinary social sciences and global studies subject with which I have a love-hate relationship. While I study different topics, from economics and history to geography and anthropology, the environment and social justice are my main interests. When I finish, I would like to top the course with a master and a PhD in order to become a researcher (fingers crossed!). I often get involved in social action and community work, normally through volunteering. At the same, I have a couple of jobs to save money for the future, and for experiences such as internships and cultural exchanges abroad.
Above all, writing has been my passion since primary school, something between a hobby and a career for me: I don’t want to dedicate my whole life to it, but I would like to publish my works and see them succeed. In primary school, I started writing by creating poems, short stories and novellas. Now, I also write songs, scripts/plays, novels and essays (my poems, song lyrics and essays are featured in this site!). Without doubt, prose is my preferred type of literature to write. Indeed, my main writing projects are a children-youth fantasy book series, and a coming-of-age novel series. The former is being edited and improved, as I wrote it when I was a preteen over 10 years ago, while the later is being updated and finished, after I stopped sharing it in Wattpad in 2016-2017.
Writing has always been a self-care and reflective practice for me, not so much to escape from my life, but to make sense of it and my feelings. Furthermore, due to a speech disorder and occasional anxiety, I’m not a good speaker. Thus, when you are reading my blog or/and my original works, keep in mind you are really learning about who I am and how I think, probably much more than when I speak. By the way, fear not if you don’t like reading: I have increasingly developed an interest in photography and film-making, hence I will be sharing more visual and audiovisual artistic work.
So, I don’t have much more to say… This is me! A blogger, development undergraduate, and writer, who is also a bookworm and music lover. Just an ordinary girl working hard to be a self-published creative and social researcher.