“Sat in a corner
Thinking about how the former
Affected the now
Stream down my face
The sorrow is silent
Still, it makes me ache
A life event
Crosses my mind
Stopping my heartbeat
Distracting me from my tasks
I stare blankly at the wall
While my head travels back in time
Back to the years of being a child
Naïve and bright
A grandfather’s death
A forced eviction
A domestic fight
A mother leaving
A father ignoring
A separation between siblings
A meal in a homeless shelter
All these events and many others
Never seemed as tragic as they were
Pain was barely felt
Yet, wounds inside my heart were made
A heart that now is broken
And can’t be repaired because it is unspoken
That the past can’t hold you back
That prosperity is possible
With hard work and kind words
And, while social mobility may not be a myth
These concerns are hard to do away with
When you grow up
With no one to love
With no one to trust
With temporal people
That go and might not come back
You learn a lesson
You learn a bad lesson
Don’t keep anyone inside your heart
Don’t care about people way too much
Don’t attach yourself to anyone
Consciously and unconsciously
This lesson is learned
And applied to everyone
So, what now?
How do you fix it?
Can it be fixed?
Can you piece together a mirror smashed into thousands pieces?
Can you pick up the ashes from a fire and make wood again?
Can you gather the salt dropped and dissolved into the sea?
Can you join the fragments from a torn apart family portrait?
Can you revive a bloodless soul?
Hope is great when you are sleeping
Then you wake up and reality is beeping
The truth is, things break
And sometimes the best option
Is throwing them away”
-Written about a personal issue.
By Emilie H. Featherington
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