Song: Torn (Lyrics)

“I hate myself for feeling like this

Not being grateful for my blessings

But this cruel world is for the strong

And I’m weak, I can’t cope anymore

I have been surviving for some time

Don’t know when the last time I saw light was

And the tunnel has never been so dark

No torch can light it up

I know there is something wrong within me

Chemical imbalances, something is wrong in here

So I can’t control my thoughts and words

And my actions are absurd errors

That’s how I feel lately

Because I get hurt easily

And my injuries can’t heal

Without love or medicine

Love or medicine

My biggest wish is not existing

Sounds dramatic, though I can’t take this itching

The pain inside me seems eternal

And I don’t see improvements in my journal

My cowardice makes me blind

To knives, pills and bridges in my mind

I would sell my soul to go back in time

And prevent mum from meeting that man

My heart wants to stop beating

The ache in my brain is too distressing

Overthinking destroyed my visions

And now I’m torn between my death and my goals

Torn between my death and my goals

Between my death and my goals

My death and my goals

Blood means nothing anymore

My own killed the love

Too much power destroyed the web

And no spider can create it again

The friends I have keep me alive

True family day and night

I wish I could retain them better

Yet my trust won’t settle

The future is what has me here

So far away and unclear

Moving out from these contained tears

To start again and forget these years

I want to work hard so nobody else

Has to feel like me ever again

Giving children comfort and wellbeing

To reduce the lack of human beings

Human beings

My biggest wish is not existing

Sounds dramatic, though I can’t take this itching

The pain inside me seems eternal

And I don’t see improvements in my journal

My cowardice makes me blind

To knives, pills and bridges in my mind

I would sell my soul to go back in time

And prevent mum from meeting that man

My heart wants to stop beating

The ache in my brain is too distressing

Overthinking destroyed my visions

And now I’m torn between my death and my goals

Torn between my death and my goals

Between my death and my goals

My death and my goals

Isn’t it sweet when the devil calls your name

And the gates of hell can’t wait

To see you step inside there

Into a flaming Eden

The demons come to Earth and recruit souls

Of lost people in the real world

They are wearing masks of angels

Offering money and power while being gentle

God said love but humanity got lost

Too many preachers, and a few disciples

The pathway to heaven is full of dust

With ugly reflections of humankind

My biggest wish is not existing

Sounds dramatic, though I can’t take this itching

The pain inside me seems eternal

And I don’t see improvements in my journal

My cowardice makes me blind

To knives, pills and bridges in my mind

I would sell my soul to go back in time

And prevent mum from meeting that man

My heart wants to stop beating

The ache in my brain is too distressing

Overthinking destroyed my visions

And now I’m torn between my death and my goals

Torn between my death and my goals

Between my death and my goals

My death and my goals.”

 

By Emilie H. Featherington

All Rights Registered © 2015

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